in the throes of a new semester

Now that this semester is really and truly underway, I find myself slipping back into old habits: not sleeping enough and all but abdicating my chores, relying instead on Hubby to pick up the slack around the house and caffeine to keep me going when I’ve watched the sun and moon both rise and set since I’ve known slumber.

I’m trying so very hard to stay on top of all my school work, which is pleasantly challenging this semester. (Although an abrupt change of pace from the chill-out schedule of last semester.) And although I gripe about the effort it requires, this is largely because of the mental energy expended on my wage-earning work. I easily could do my paralegal job and do it well, and I could easily be the most studious student my professors have ever known, but I cannot do them both simultaneously to the very best of my ability. Inevitably one suffers, and generally it is school because by the time I get off work I simply no longer possess the mental energy to do my school work as well as I conceivably could.

Even still, I’m doing the best I can, which is not only all that I can do but also more than sufficient, as this evening’s pol sci class demonstrated. (Seeing as how hardly another soul in the room seems to comprehend the concept of a critical analysis as opposed to a summary.)

Sure I’m pushing it, but I’ve done this juggling act before so I’ll do it again, all the while taking comfort in the fact that in time this, too, shall pass.

And blessed will be the day when my office job is one on campus, and all of my mental energies will be devoted to scholastic endeavors of some stripe.

~ by tangle on February 4, 2009.