not-so-alone in a crowd, for once
Some days are better than others. Today, for instance, was much better than yesterday.
I wrote 1200 of the 1500 words required for the first draft of that darned paper. Although I’m not there yet, I’m very much closer and I feel 1000 times better about the whole project. I now have a much better idea about what still needs to be done, and I don’t feel all that bad about what I’ve already done.
After putting in 5 hours on the paper this evening, I went to the pub for an Open Mic Comedy night to laugh off some stress. ‘Twas great fun! Unfortunately, the guys in the troupe didn’t do any of their usual group-improv routines (in the style of Whose Line is it Anyway), but their stand-up acts were all pretty good, even if I had heard some of the material before. The audience, however, was disrespectfully drunk and loud which did spoil my enjoyment of the act somewhat.
Nevertheless, I drove home feeling rather good, because I found and sat with new acquaintances and saw many more smiling, familiar faces and made brief pleasantries as I made my way out. (And the awkwardly-drunk hippie guy who hit on me was somewhat flattering even though it was a mostly offputting and uncomfortable experience.) While this may not sound like much of an accomplishment, it’s a good indication to me that perhaps I’m not actually an asocial freak after all.
All too often I feel so disconnected and out-of-place in crowded dark rooms in public places. Especially when everyone else is imbibing the merry-making spirits while I sit soberly taking it all in. But tonight was a pleasant exception and the plesant mood it engendered was indeed a welcome change of pace from the crappy mood that plauged me yesterday.
Here’s hoping for a continued improvement as the week wears on; if all goes well, come Sunday I’ll be on cloud 9…
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